I am Jacks broken heart.

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2006-05-20T18:50:57Z

welcome to existance.

2006-05-20T16:03:45Z

-Love-
Had a Boy/Girl friend? yes
Made out with somebody? yes
Fallen In Love? no
Cried over a boy/girl? more than one.
Broken up with somebody? yes
Been broken up with? yes

-Friends-
Got into a fight about something stupid? several
Ruined a friendship? yeah =/
Started new friendships? yes
Had an awesome party with just your girls/guys? a few =)
Been to a costume Party? Nooo
Played truth or dare? possibly, I don't think so though.

-School-
Failed a class? no
Failed a test? Yes
Got a detention? nope
Yelled at by all your teachers for talking? Mhm
Argued with a teacher about a grade? probably.
Skipped class? LMAO. no.

-Personal-
Had a birthday? not yet.
Changed Schools? unfortunatly I haven't.
Highlighted/ dyed your hair? of course.

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Choose a band / artist and answer ONLY in titles of their songs:

1. Band You Chose: The Smiths

2. Are you male or female:
Shakespeare's sister

3. Describe yourself:
heaven knows im miserable now

4. How do some people feel about you:
unloveable.

5. How do you feel about yourself?
asleep

6. Describe your ex boyfriend/girlfriend
half a person.

7. Describe where you want to be:
london.

8. Describe what you want to be:
sweet and tender hooligan.

9. Describe how you live:
stretch out and wait.

10. Describe how you love:
Golden Lights.

11. How do you feel about love?
Please please please let me get what I want.

12. Share a few words of Wisdom:
There is a light that never goes out.

13. Now say goodbye:
Sheila take a bow.

anyway, In other news I had the strangest dream last night.
I was a waitress at some resturant, and mr. lomonaco came in
and I was his waitress
and he ordered like 8 glasses of wine
and then at the end of the night he was totally drunk
and he was like "You're my student, right?" and i was like "yes"
and he was like "you're lisa, right?" and i was like "yes"
and he was like "Are you a girl?" and I was like "yep"
and he was like "okay thats all I wanted to know" and stumbled out of the resturant, and then as I was walking out Amanda Becker was there and she was like "lisa can you cover for me on saturday" and i was like "yeah sure no problem" and then I got picked up by my mom and we went to this place thats like half a nail salon and half a chinese resturant, lmao and she was getting her nails done and I was counting my tips and I only made like 20 dollars cause most of the money was counterfit.

it was odd.

anyway, im doneeeeee.
I want the velvet goldmine soundtrack.
bye<3

do you wanna touch, do you wanna touch, do you wanna touch me there? (ohh yeah, ohh yeah, ohh yeah).

2006-05-20T02:41:09Z

lmao, so.
just got back from michelles house
with megan and maddie.
it was funny.
mad libs.
lmao.

LMAO. fishing for toys.

lmao, maddie<3.

douche.

aha, wtf?

lol, my sunglasses<3

I WANT TO SEE MISSION IMPOSSIBLE THREE BEFORE I EXPLODE.

I don't have time for a real update.

2006-05-19T10:52:53Z

todays friday, thank god.
FUCKFUCKFUCKpeople.
fuck YOU, especially fuck you.
it's better to be alone.
"Every man is an island" type shit.
tell ariana no.
save your money
get out of deer park
make something of yourself
5 minutes left till school,
just.get.out.

GRAAHHHHHH, I think im gonna make a new journal, I don't like the vibe of this one anymore.

im definatly not listening to natasha beddingfeild.

2006-05-17T19:21:55Z

um, so it's really cool how whenver I go to my friendspage, all the entires that are f/o don't show up.
and I didn't realize until today when it started working again.
lmao, rofl dude, i just thought that like, a swarm of people were all like, over lj.

#1.

sing_a_sonnet

2006-05-17T01:24:30Z

Im done with school
I dont even want to go in.
like, the thought of going to school is bringing tears to my eyes.
what the hell.
my "friends" don't exactly make it any better.
especially not recently.
I feel like when I went to sleep all my friends were great
and when i woke up they morphed into these deamons
who I don't know and cant recognize.

what the hell?
=(
I want to run away.

sing_a_sonnet

2006-05-15T23:24:00Z

when will things just be okay?
today sucked.
tomorrow's definatly gonna suck.

but hey, the way I see it
a true friend would forgive an honest mistake
however stupid,
or however bad.

I just want things to get back to normal.

I give up on EVERYONE, seriously. I'm done with caring about people. anyway, [tons of] pictures.

2006-05-15T03:01:09Z

we made a ship out of the pizza. lmao.

gay.

I was trying to take a picture of christina and michelle doing NOTHING in gym but people kept getting in the way, lmao.

cutiesss.

---

LMAO.

lmao, #1.

=)

devil face. lmao ariannas mom.

no penis captions neccisary.

lmao, we were attempting to take a cute picture....

haha, almost succesfull.

lmao, on the phone.

I look insane.

mad ghetto and shit.

arianna's party was fun.

Im really sick of the stress
that fucking people put on me.
I feel so suffocated,
and there is really no way out.
until maybe next year.

yeaaaah.
I really can't wait for summer.
fresh faces that I've only seen like once or twice this year.
it's gonna be grand.
& it's really one of the things that's making me not want to jump off a cliff.

ROAR.

2006-05-11T10:28:02Z

I FUCKING HATE EVERYONE AT MY SCHOOL.

I love about 10 people, they know who they are.
I tolerate about 60 or 70 people.
and I HATE everyone else.

ughhhhh!!

but ohhhhhhhhh my darrrrrrrrrrling, why did you change.

2006-05-08T06:37:55Z

I have a new celeb crush of the moment.
Jonathan Rhys Meyerssssss.
no, it's not because of mission impossible three,
I knew about him before that.

But for some reason I don't think I realized how
amazing he was until a few days ago while I was
watching velvet goldmine.

love<3

and dude, he's a smoker. =].

in other news I was trying to pull an all nighter
but I just got hit with this sudden wave of sleepy-ness
so im gonna go to sleep now.

It's gay cause if i'd have stayed up all night and then just gone to school
id have tons of energy from being overly tired
and now im just gonna be a cranky bitch for getting a little taste of sleep
and having to be thrown into a crowd of bafoons for six hours.

anyway.
feild trip on friday w/some of the only people I like in school.
should be fun =].
It's making me not want to shoot myself in the face because i know
there's only gonna be 4 days of school.
ohhh, & ariannas birthday =].
I know what I'm giving her.
I just have to go to cvs and steal her a card. lmao,
I'd just buy it but somehow that doesnt feel right.
wtf is wrong with me? lmao.
ahhh, the life of a teenage rebel.

nightiess.

thunderstruck.

2006-05-03T01:17:13Z

BEST.NIGHT.EVER.

by and by we'll defyyy a little bit of gravity.

2006-05-02T04:02:04Z

so, this weekend was kinda gay.
I didn't really do too much,
but on saturday I was so awfully bored.
like, I don't know you know that bored when you cant stand to be in your own skin?
like, reallyyyyy lazy?

so, I got my mom to take me to the mall.
got new kicks =)

school today was decent.
first and second period were boring.
I was gonna do my notecards for english but i forgot my book.
bleh.
then in photo mrs. barley wasnt there, and arianna came in the darkroom for a hot second
and we chatted. then she went back to global.

then fourth pd I cut spanish and me and arianna ate lunch early
cause we decided that we were really hungry.
thennnnnnnnn we were roaming the halls
and we checked up on our locker to see if everything was on the up and up.
haha, and I had a shot.
nothing really happened. I mean, I didnt get a buzz or anything, but the burn was really nice.
but my breath smelled like it.
so we had to get drinks and stuff.
lmao, obviously Im really smart.

thennnnnnn fifth period was fucking gay.
marketing >.< ugh.
6th period me and arianna just kinda roamed the halls,
cause jen wasnt here
and john wasn't sitting at the table
and john iverson wasn't here.
so we were like, iight fuck it. hahaha.

seventh period was really funny
I wrote a story about how I predict christina and mr. lomonaco's relationship will develop. there was laughter, and dirty looks from everyone else.
lmao fuck them though.

ummmmm anything else?
oh I hung out with arianna after school,
lmao we stole some doubleshots from cvs. lmfao, she made me steal her this pair of REALLY hideous rainbow blocker glasses where you cant see the eyes.
lmao

yeahhh then I went home and watched gilmore girls.
it was the pilot episode =).
and then I took like a 27 hour nap and here I am.
hahaha.
aiight, im done.

peace outtttts.<3.

sing_a_sonnet. lmao. =). bye.

um, advertises.

2006-04-30T01:47:29Z

sing_a_sonnet.
go there. srsly.
comment.
even if you think its horrible.
especially if you think it's horrible.
I really want your opinions. =).

anyway, other than that.
lol, yesterday was awesome.
hung out with caiti, pete, milan & the usuals.
lol, Im not gonna go into detail
but, we were like 3 seconds away from being kicked out of taco bell for being too loud.
lmao they sent a giant sized black man to tell us to be quiet.
twice. hahahaha.

thennn we played tag in blockbuster =)
for like, .6 seconds
until the employees got mad.
lmao then we just walked around and looked at dvds.
then we PACKED ourselves into caiti's moms car.
and it turned out that only two of us actually needed rides.
lmaowtf.

anyways, good times good times. I have the picture we took but I can't be fucked uploading it. ill do it another time.

byessss.

blah =(

2006-04-29T19:47:54Z

I swear to god, sometimes I wish I were a hermit.
so I wouldn't have to deal with people, ever.

OR I wish that I lived in the city
BY MYSELF.

roar.

I hate living in this town
where everybody knows everybody elses business
and half the time it isnt even fucking true.
and everybody has their stupid opinions
that i dont fucking want to hear
or care about
and they choke their point of veiw down your throat
and you just want them to shut the fuck up
and they wont stop because they think they're gonna persuade you or something.
ugh >.<

im in such an aweful mood today.
like, im not bitchy or anything
despite the way this entry sounds.
im just increadibly bored
and I feel like I want to walk around
but Id have no where to walk to.

it's days like today why I REALLY need a liscense
so instead of just sitting here in a funk, listening to songs on my computer that ive already heard so many times they're not even good anymore
I can go out and do something.

I'd totally take myself to a movie
or the mall
even if i didn't buy anything
its just better than being here.

ugh.
I need to get out.

i say a little prayer for you.

2006-04-26T22:13:59Z

today was cool.
school was.. school.
lunch was pretty funny.
john iverson and his homoerotic jokes are amazing.
and they are the same exact thing everyday.
lmao but its still funny.

I think if I were a guy like 90% of my humor would be homoeroticism.

anywho, after school
I went to tacobell with Jen and Esh.
we had some serious chats.
but it was still a good time.

then my sister picked me up
aaaaaand, now we're gonna go out to eat cause she's in town.

roaaaaaar and stuff.
idk I feel weird.
like theres more I want to say, but there really isn't much to say.

I really want to be a writer.
I mean, I know I say that every five seconds.
but I really do.
it's the only thing I like to do.
and that im good at.. well, decent.

it just bothers me, that like the one thing that im even a little good at
is something that EVERYONE can do.
like, the things I write are no better than anybody elses shit.

I said that today at tacobell
and jen and alyscia were all like "nooo"
but... idk, I still think that.

if I ever did anything
I think i'd want to make one of those books
that are like a compelation of short stories.
i love books like that.

anyways, im out.
peaazzz.<3.

haddaway.

2006-04-25T21:59:21Z

so, I patched things up with Arianna yesterday.
and thank god, those 8 seconds where we weren't perfect were really killing me. lmao.
people are always like roar you guys are so cliquey.
but I feel like nobody REALLY understands us, except for each other.
I don't know, im not gonna get too sappy but yeah, we're fine again.

so anyway, I hung out with some old people today.
It was.. it was a good time, but it was weird.
in some ways we're all still the same.
like that we'll sit in a pow wow and be un-moveable for like an hour and a half.
it's just the content that was different.

Im not gonna say it wasn't fun,
it was a little weird for me though.
I felt out of place I guess.
I guess i really have changed since last year.. the beginning of this year.

I mean I knew I did, in the obvious ways.
but there are subtle things that are different that i didn't realize until today.

anyway, I have some fabulous pictures from today.
I really suggest looking at them.

LMAO. "wrong"

LMAO

LMAO. what kind of comment could be made?

eeeee-yah.
im done.
byyes<3

oh wait.
I also hung out with someone I "hate"
but she wasn't that bad today?
i dont know.
lmao hey jen&esh, should we go to her party? lmfao.

kay,bye.<3

ROAR.

2006-04-24T10:36:33Z

I dont want to be friends with my mother.
she's a nice lady,
but I dont want to be friends with her.
I hate sharing things with her.
I dont like having her know things about me.
I dont like knowing things about her.
she needs to stop.
I want her to be my mother,
and wake me up in the morning.
and yell at me to do my homework.
and tell me that i cant hang out cause its too late
or too whatever.
and talk about meaningless things with her.

However, I do not want to go around town
talking about all my personal stuff with her.
its so uncomfortable.
and when she finds out something about me
it makes me feel nauseas.
Im a really private person when it comes to my mom.
she doesnt even know me.
and she needs to go away.

yeah. =x

2006-04-23T04:16:46Z

I would have had a great time.
but I hate my best friends boyfriend.
and no one understands why, because he's nice to everyone but me.

yeah.
why cant it be prom time?

bangladesh.

2006-04-19T22:29:12Z

I've been feeling very emotional lately.
can't exactly explain how
or why
but I just really want to go to the beach for some reason.
it's like, calling me.
Im gonna try to go this weekend.
even if its not extremely hot.
Just because, Idk. I feel like it's something I have to do.

anyone want to come to the beach this weekend?
leave comments for plans?
ilu.

its 16 miles to the promise land.

2006-04-17T18:47:56Z

I have a new LJ layout.
it's pretty sweet.

october___air

oh, ps I want to be Jenny Lewis when I grow up.
thats all.

edit LYING! I have a writing journal now.
cchhhheck it out.
sing_a_sonnet

THATS all <3.

so this vacation.

2006-04-16T03:57:26Z

the first few days were pretty decent.
but then I got what i believe is the flu.
i dont even know, that might not be it.
but I got sick on wednesday night.
but I didn't really feel it until thursday
I was out with maddie christina and michelle after we did our project
and lmao, i made them leave =x
cause I thought i was going to have a seizure infront of all the kids at maymore
or worse
lmao so we walked home
and like, I rang the bell and my mom was just like "WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU?"
lmao i must have looked like I had been in a war or something
so yeah, ive been sick since then.
today I was pretty much fine though.
I had a fever here and there, but very slightly.
hopefully ill be good as new by tomorrow
and then maybe i can go with arianna to the mall on monday
and we'll eat some "ching chong hong kong" food as she liked to describe it. lmao.

booooo,
I like how ive had the entire vacation to do my work
and i didnt even find out that i had to do notecards that were due on tuesday until thursday
and i still havent done them
and im probably gonna do them in gym/photo and lunch LMAO.
I am scholastic achiever #1.

so, in other news me and craig broke up.
lmao, whatever.
like lmao on the phone
he was all "hey" (litteraly like maybe a 15 full second pause)
and im just like ".. you there?"
and he's like "yeah im here BIGHUGESIGH"
and im like "okay.. whats up"
(another 15 full second pause)
"I think we should stop dating"
lmao and seriously guess what the first thing to come out of my mouth was?
"Yeah me too"
lmao but then he goes "WHAT??"
so i thought that he might have been kidding
so i was just like "um, jaykay?"
so he was like ANOTHER FUCKING 10 SECOND PAUSE
and im like ".... are you joking?"
and he's like "(big dramatic sigh) no"
and then, y'know blahblahblah bullshit.
and he was like "are you gonna be okay"
and im just like "um.. yeah"
and hes like "okay you sound good"
lmfao and i was like "okay bye"
and like
seriously, for a half hour after the call
I was just peachy and shit
cause like, y'know. overall I guess I liked him but it was no big deal really.
and I was actually thinking "we probably should break up"
but I had my prom dress already, lmao.
and like he gave me this big speech about how girls break up with him after a week
and it breaks his heart or something, lmao so i felt really guilty about it.

all my good friends know I pretty much really disliked him for about half the day
and liked him for the other half. lmao.

so yeah, I was fine with it, but then I remembered all that bull-shit he said
lmao and it made me really mad
like REALLY fucking pissed.
so, I cursed him out online,
lmao. I kind of really let him have it.
but, whatever. its done with now.

besides he was a shitty boyfriend pretty much the only thing he did right
was pay for the dates
and say nice things. (which were lies so it doesnt really count).

lmao.
bah, so yeah. thats it for my weekend.
lets see what tomorrow brings, shall we?

pitchaaa post!.

2006-04-11T03:46:32Z

so, today I went to the mall with parkshore kids.
it was good.

anyways, I have a million pictures from various weeks that I never posted and I can't think of a better time to post them than now, since Im bored.

lmfao, its true. me & christina were gonna get in the picture together but we couldnt keep a straight face long enough.

lmfao, gianni wearing the sign.

haha, eshhh! here you go. lmao <3

lmao some black guy who ive never seen before comes up and is just like "....wtf" at vinny. lmao.

i like how none of us are looking at the camera.

aw.

LMAO AT EVERYONES FACE.

tee-hees.

lmao, i found it amusing that he had no idea that i was in his class.

LMAO MICHELLE.

haha, i'd feel bad posting such a crazy pic of her without one of my own.

.. and alyscias =D

lmao. my artist rendering of 5th period lunch.

ohhh ps, i made a writing journal.
add it & reviewwwwwww =)

sing a sonnet .
cooooooooooooooool.

byes.

um, 144 questions ya'll.

2006-04-10T03:40:03Z

1) Who is the last person you high-fived
lmao I have no ideaaaa.

2) If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?
NOT AT ALL.
I would either go insane during training or die within the first 10 minutes of fighting.

3) Do you sleep with the TV on?
no, unless I fall asleep while watching something.

4) Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
no, and I never drink milk anyway.

5) Have you ever won a spelling bee?
lmao. no way.

6) Have you ever been stung by a bee?
NO. & im terrified of the thought even though so many other things that are probably way more painful have happened to me and ive been pretty much fine with all of them.

7) How fast can you type?
pretty fast, but if I think about it I type really slow.

8) Are you afraid of the dark?
only when Im home alone.

9) Eye color?
brown

11) When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
uhh sometime in recent weeks cause my foot was hurting.

12) Do you knock on wood?
nooo

13) Do you floss daily?
no

15) Can you hoola hoop?
never.

16) Are you good at keeping secrets?
not really =/ lmao only if they are extremely important or the person who told me was one of my best friends.

17) What do you want for Christmas?
i never know what I want when it comes time for a present, ever.

18) Do you know the Muffin Man?
I ate him.

19) Do you talk in your sleep?
noo sir.

20) Who wrote the book of love?
I did.

21) Have you ever flown a kite?
no =( apparently I had no childhood, thats what im told anyway.

22) Do you wish on your fallen eyelashes?
no, maybe I should start.

23) Do you consider yourself successful?
not really, lmao. sigh.

24) How many people are on your contact list of your cell?
i think like 8. maybe. loser.

25)Have you ever asked for a pony?
no, I don't live in dix hills.

26) Plans for tomorrow?
awez, camp peeps in the walt. wit mall<3

27) Can you juggle?
lmao, no.

28) Missing someone now?
kind of, not exactly "missing" just wanting to see.

29) when was the last time you told someone I Love You?
my mom on the phone today.

30) And truly meant it?
yes I meant it.

31) How often do you drink?
whenever there is a reason to.

32) How are you feeling today?
fine? today was like a veggitation day.

33) Are you black?
on the inside.

34) Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
neither.

35.)What are you looking forward to?
hmm. tomorrow, summer.

36) Have you ever crawled through a window?
=).

37) Have you ever eaten dog food?
NO.

38) Can you handle the truth?
yeah, some things take some time I guess though.

39) Do you like green eggs and ham?
aw, they had green eggs and ham at my elementary school one day when i was like 7.
it was really cute. I didnt like them though, lmao.

40) Any cool scars?
I have a scar on my left thumb, I got cut with a knife by accident when I was in 4th grade.

41) How many keys are on your keychain?
one, my house key.

42) What curse word do you use the most?
maybe its a toss between shit and fuck. I don't know, but I do curse too much.

43) Do you own an iPod?
yes, its broken though.

44) Who on your Myspace "Top 8" do you talk to the most?
bahh, um. I talk to all of them really frequently, I kind of dont talk to stephanie or lauren that much though =(

45) What time is your alarm clock set for?
I dont have an alarm clock.

46) How many suitcases do you own?
none, I own like 3 "overnight" bags though.

47) Do you wear flip-flops even when it's cold outside?
haha, yes. toe socks, kids.

48) Where do you buy your groceries from?
idk. stop and shop?

49) Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
depends on my mood

50) What was the last movie you watched?
pulp fiction

51) Do any of your friends have children?
lmao no.

52) If you won the lottery, what's the first thing you would buy?
I have no idea. maybe I'd buy a house or something.

53) Has anyone ever called you lazy?
oy. lmao I can automatically think of at least 10 people who have called me lazy just in the passed month. =/(march)

54) Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster?
ehh not really. only when my sleeping situation is REALLY screwed up like it was when I was out of school for a month and a half and I would go to sleep at 5 am and wake up at 2:30 in the afternoon.

55) What CD is currently in your CD player?
I think new found glory- the story so far.

56) Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
chocolate.

57) Has anyone told you a secret this week?
um, no? oh, francesca told me one but then we kinda went around and told everyone in my photo class. lmao. FREAKING ANTHONY SINNACORE. pinned me down and tickled it out of me. it was horrible.

58) When was the last time someone hit on you?
haha. I dont know. I guess craig at vicki's sweet 16, but I dont know if that counts, or if he even was.

59) What did you have for dinner?
a sandwhich.

60) Do you wear hoodies often?
sure.

61) Can you whistle?
yes, but not a tune.

62) Have you ever participated in a protest?
no, I've signed random pettitions that were kind of meaningless though.

63) Who was the last person to call you?
either craig or my mom.

64) What is your favorite ride at an amusement park?
umm. Nitro at 6 flags or Millenium Force at cedar park

65) Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
yeah =/

66) What area code are you in right now?
631

67) Did you watch cartoons as a child?
omg yes.

68) How big is your local mall?
the closest thing to a "local mall" I have is south shore.. I guess its fairly large.

69) How many siblings do you have?
one sister.

70) Are you shy around the opposite sex?
it depends on their personality.

71) What is your biggest regret?
god, I dont even know, I have a lot.

72) Have you ever had Jamba Juice?
no

73) When was the last time you laughed so hard your sides hurt?
when me and arianna were chased out of the faculty bathroom last week, lmfao.

74) What movie do you know every line to?
clueless, life as a house, mean girls.

75) Do you own any band t-shirts?
a few.

76) When was your last plane ride?
the last time I went to florida, which I think was three years ago.

77) How many chairs are at your dining room table?
four

78)What is your favorite salad dressing?
bleu cheese.

79)Do you read for fun?
sometimes, yeah.

80) Can you speak any languages other than English?
I can speak some spanish very badly.

81) What color is your bedroom painted?
lavender.

82) Have you ever cried in public?
oh god, yes. Im gonna say I cry in school an average of 50 days a year. maybe more.

83) Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop?
laptop.

84) Which do you make: wishes or plans?
both?

85) Are you always trying to learn new things?
not really.

86)Do you shower on a daily basis?
of course.

87) Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
I want to re-peirce my nose.

88) Do you believe that the guy should pay on the first date?
lmao.. yeah. I wouldn't mind paying, but I just think he should.
craig did =)

89) Can you skip rocks?
no

90) Have you ever been to Jamaica?
hahah, no.

91) What to snack on at the movie theatres?
none. soda.

92) Who was your favorite teacher?
mrs. shumacher in 4th grade, mrs. levy in 7th&8th, mr. vertullo in 8th and mr. lomonaco right now.

93) Have you ever dated someone out of your race?
no

94) What is the weather like?
cold because its late.

95) Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos?
maybe, depends on the personality.

96) Do you have an online journal?
no way.

97) What was your favorite class in high school?
global.

98) Do you enjoy traveling via airplanes?
YES.

99) What personality trait is a must-have in the opposite sex
humor. at least some form of it.

100) Have you ever been attracted to someone physically unattractive?
I guess.

101) When was the last time you slept on the floor?
uhh. some sleep over i dont know, a long time.

102) What is your favorite alcoholic drink?
bacardi apple.

103) Does your closest Starbucks have a drive-thru?
no

104) Do you like your living arrangement?
not really, but it could be a million times worse.

105) What is your mother's hometown?
rosdale?

106) How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
2

107) Do you eat breakfast daily?
no, just when i have time or on weekends.

108) What was the last thing to scare you?
when I went to the haunted house during halloween.

109) Are your days full and fast-paced?
nope. some days are, but for the most part no.

110) Did you ever get in trouble for talking in class?
yes, lmao skjohdal.

111) What is your favorite fruit?
bannanas

112) Do you pay attention to calories on the back of packages?
not really.

113) How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
16

114) Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
only if its a mistake that should clearly be correct by the age 15. other than that no.

115) Do you believe in life on other planets?
yes, I think it's impossible for us to be the only planet with life in the entire universe.

116) Have you ever been to Six Flags?
YES.

117) Who was the last person to piss you off?
um. =x. lmao

118) Do you believe that God has a gender?
I don't really believe in god that much.

119) What was the last thing you ate?
dinner.

120) Do you get along better with the same or opposite sex?
I get along with a good personality, gender doesn't really matter.

121) What did you dress up as for your first Halloween?
I think snow white.

122) How did your parents pick your name?
my moms favorite name growing up.

123) Do you like mustard?
sometimes, not really.

124) What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
various complaints about life and people and such. Nothing positive or something that would get me out of my hard situation lmao.

125) Would you ever sky dive?
definatly.

126) Do you sleep on your side, tummy, or back?
I shift a lot, i dont know, all.

127) What character from a movie most reminds you of yourself?
um, put on the spot I dont know, but I really think im kind of like Mary- Elizabeth from the perks of being a wall-flower. which isn't really that great =/ butt yeah.

128) Have you ever bid for something on ebay?
no

129) What do you think of Angelina Jolie being pregnant?
I don't really care at all.

130) Do you enjoy giving hugs?
I didnt, but that whole phase where everyone in the group would hug when we saw each other or when we were all leaving kinda made me not mind it.

131) Would you consider yourself to be fashionable?
sure, sometimes.

132) Do you own a digital camera?
yes ma'am.

133)If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would
you feel?
ummm, I would feel flattered?

134) What celebrities have you been compared to?
um, I really dont know come to think of it.

135) Who is your favorite Star Wars character?
obi-wan.

136) Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but never do?
not really. it depends on how much I care about the person.

137) What books, if any, have made you cry?
the perks of being a wall flower, the fabulist, and an all american girl.. lmao.

138) Do you think you're attractive?
no

139) What are you allergic to?
nothing

140) Are you a jealous person?
sometimes

141) What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment?
I really don't know. I guess if you're not attatched to anyone romantically, and if you at least know the person on some level, and if you're safe, it's not THAT huge of a deal.

142) Do you ever feel guilty after eating meat?
I used to in like, middle school. but not anymore though for some reason.

143) If you were born the opposite sex, what would your name have been?
I dont know, i never asked and my parents never said.

144) Did you ever celebrate "Pi Day" in school?
lmao, yes. In 8th grade math with mrs. hilary haha.

did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded? that heaven is overrated.

2006-04-08T01:13:14Z

so.
April 5th anniversary.
was kind of shitty
we didn't do anything.
but at the same time arianna wrote me this note
that was like three pages long
that she started when I was out of school.
and like. lmao.
it made me cry,
I mean the first time I read it, it was just really funny
but then I re-read it and i got all sappy, and yeah. I cried.
haha, faggot.

I don't know, this whole april 5th shit has got me thinking
I was at an entirely different place last year.
but in some ways, I'm at exactly the same place I was
last year I was at a weird point with the group of friends I had
I loved them, but there was just something missing
I would come straight home after school
we would seldomly hang out.
and then, I found new friends.
and I had so much fun
and they were new and exciting
and I loved them more than myself.
and we hung out every single day
and I really thought we would all be friends for the rest of highschool.

but then things started to change
couples sprouted up
best friends were formed
little cliques within our cliques happened
new people came into the picture
new and old people left the picture
people started hating each other.
I as well as many other people.. all of us, actually
have said that we can see the little fragment of whats left
of our group falling into nothing.
and that really freaks me out, i dont want that to happen.

14-15 was such a crazy year.
it was pretty much all my firsts.
..well, except for a few haha.
but really almost everything that a "teenager" goes through
happened to me for the first time at 15.
and I just feel like I've come full circle from last april 5th
and although I am different in so many ways now
lately, things are the same.
I never hang out with anyone anymore
and I love my friends.
but I feel like something is missing.

I guess life is funny that way sometimes.
I don't know, I need to stop thinking so much.
im sorry if you actually read this.
bye<3

fuck you.

2006-04-08T00:20:58Z

I HATE YOU
if you're thinking
"hmmm, this might be about me"
chances are,
it is.
because i hate a lot of fucking people.

go die.